Monday, August 31, 2009

Never Say Never (Part 1)

How many times have you heard the quote Never Say Never??

This summer that quote became our families life quote.

I am a planner. Everything is calculated, planned and scheduled.

One thing I don't do well is CHANGE the plan.

And my life's plan was to:

1. build a house we would live in until our children were grown with children of their own
2. attend a church close to home that we LOVED
3. send our kids to a Private k-12 school

I had succeeded in implementing my plan and I had no intentions to change or alter that plan EVER.

It worked. It was comfortable. It was safe.

And *my* plan ran like a well oiled ship.

My world revolved within a 7 mile radius and it was RARE that I went out of that radius. I *LIKED* my plan!!

The Lord however, had other plans.

He slowly began reveling His plan to me at the end of May. It was subtle at first though so I quickly dismissed it.

In early June He became louder and a little more persistent.

I was sure that I was hearing the Lord wrong or misinterpreting the message so I began to fast and pray and seek council from 3 trusted and deeply admired friends.

The more I fasted and prayed, the more God spoke, and the more He spoke the more angry and frustrated I became.

He wanted to CHANGE *my* plan.

He was asking me to withdraw my kids from the small (everybody knows everybody) private school that I had intended them to be in until they graduated. A school where the Gospel is taught in every subject. A school where Chapel and Bible are part of the curriculum. A school where they prayed openly. A school where Christ was the center and the focus. A school where I *thought* He would want me to send my kids.

And the worse part He was asking me to do this without explanation, without reason, without justification.

All He would say was "trust me".

I cried, I pleaded, I ran from God. I wanted to be disobedient. I was angry.

I wanted answers, I wanted to know why and I wanted a plan...

(more tomorrow)